September 4, 2003
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There was a letter for me in the mail today. I didn't recognize the handwriting immediately, but I knew it was familiar. It was postmarked September 3rd, from the same city I'm in. No return address on the front, but I saw it on the back. When I saw the name my breath caught. I started shaking. It's a letter from K.
I read it.
I read it again.
And again.
I'm still shaking, like the moments before a fist fight.
She's the only person I've ever loved enough to sacrifice everything for, and I did.
"Pass the salt, pour it in my wound."
Dine Alone, by Quicksand
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Gotta love those blasts from the past, huh?
That's happened to me before, but in the form of a phone call. Not only did I shake, I cried. Afterwards of course, can't let 'em know. Hope it was good news.
I hate it when the past comes pouring into the present... but thats me. Great photos.
That's why they call it Quicksand, R.
Oh, Finder of lost loves, satan. Makes me shudder. There's just one person in the world whose initial on an envelope would make me shake and it's been 12 years since I've last heard him breathe next to me. I have shut him out of my life for such a long time. Then one day, he called and I knew immediately, intuitively, why I loved him so and why I have to shut that door again, forever. I hope K's letter made you fuzzy and warm.
Well . . . what did it say?
Crazy, dude.
ugh
I love and hate being swept back in.
hope everything turns out for the best...
awesome photos by the way..
Those are the moments when you truly realize that joy, pain, happiness, sorrow, regret, and hope can all be felt at once.
Hope all is well.
You know the little girl on the side of the Morton salt cannisters? The one with the umbrella?
Someday, I'm going to get her added to my collection of tattoos, because lord knows, when it rains...it pours.
And it feels as though someone is always sprinkling salt on my wounds, even though it's usually just me.
Timing is, as they say, everything.
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DiDi
I'm sorry
yikes...been there...don't wanna go back...
how often have you wished you were strong enough to tear it up instead of reading it? i wished and wished i was...but i wasn't.
You know Rich, nothing aches like an old wound. I found myself browsing my hard drive today...and was floored when I came upon a picture of my wife. It was all I could do to shut off the machine.
But there are words that express what I intended to pass along to you better than I seem to be able to pull off just now. I hope you can weather this...you know I do.
ONE QUESTION IN MY MIND. WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN SAID THAT HAD SUCH A BIG IMPACT ON YOU.
-QTDUST
If you have to ask...then you'd not understand the answer my dear.
it always floors me when i get goosebumbs from your life...love b
Rich, my ASC is Cancer.
Chicks suck. I know I have the capacity to do some pretty cruel things to guys. I know I've done some pretty cruel things to guys. I'm a meanie. Don't let her get to you. Easier said than done, I know.
no weapons routines?
i have a short staff form i need to work on.
and brush up on my sabre.
and push hands.....and bare hand.... lol
ugh.
thank god i have at least another 15 years left to live.
too many things to work on lately.
i hope youre enjoying the coming autumn weather.
and whats with your letter?
what did it say?!?!
there is nothing worse then that kind of reality jolt back to earth ... I am sorry that you had to get that kind of realisation ...
Right or wrong - I tend to throw away nearly all things, pictures included, that remind me of old, lost loves. Thus - I don't have to ever be reminded more than my mind will always hold the memories. I am so sorry that your heart felt a tear. Yes... what did it say?
oh shit, I hate that feeling. I'm sorry to hear that dude.
I once knew someone like that too...I gave up more than I could have, or should have.
Wow! Are you going to write back to that person?
I'm right, it is Kafkaesque.
I had a similar experience recently before my birthday--an unexpected phone call. It felt great to both be kind to the person and let him know that I've moved on.
oh, im so sorry...i know exactly how that feels, you just cry and shake and tense up...and everything else just goes away, and that hole in your heart just bursts open. i hope all is well...but i understand the feeling. *mealsymoo*
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>>the only person I've ever loved enough to sacrifice everything for, and I did.
I did that once. It's been 10 years... and I'm still wary of going there again. Some scars, or at least their memory(s), simply don't heal as quickly as others. Not after something that intense... that good... that bad.
*sigh*
I just read all the comments, and frankly they all repeat themselves, please people if something your going to say has been already said then say something else, or just keep on moving
Sounds lovely and hurtful all at once.
I can only imagine how you feel...
Amazing how something as simple as a piece of paper with words on it can practically give us a heart attack.
Hey....I'm going to get back to you soon about that thing. I'm being lazy.
Did you mean the heroin thing? Or the white slavery thing?
props...
reminds me of a sad song by Jude.
i got a letter today, an invitation
and the writing looked like you
hello how are you and by the way
please rsvp i do...
... old friendships fade away, love falls apart
and you've not spent a single day outside my heart
but there's just one more dream that I have left for you
i hope you're smiling when he turns around and says I do
I do my absolute best to NOT run into the past. But sometimes it finds me all to easily!
I hope this didnt set you back too bad...
Tina
salt in the wound...ouch..enough to scald :-/
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"I'm still shaking, like the moments before a fist fight."
What a great line.
Yeah, that's EXACTLY what it feels like to have a run-in with the ghost of relationships past.
Like a fight you know you won't win.
It doesn't matter what that letter said, to you it said enough. Though it may hurt to remember the past you must. That way you can use it to learn and grow and remember that everything happens for a reason, I wish you the best of luck. Your site and your words are amazing
wow.
somehow you expressed so perfectly what i can only say i've experienced before.
was the letter written by hand?