September 22, 2002

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  enough about me, let's talk about me where do i start this one? it seems like that the last few weeks, my entries have been becoming less and less personal. i don't think i like it. so what's been going on in my heart, my head, my life? jj this is where i met jj. she massaged me for an hour and a half, then we met up later that nite to watch jay and silent bob strike back and sit on the beach until 5am. since then we've been spending most of our time together, working out the kinks that naturally come about when 2 people are meshing their personalities. the kung fu workouts seems to fluctuate between doing them without thought and being extremely difficult. i have, what i feel, is a responsibility to do this. i can't explain how or why, i just know i need to do it. the workouts i'm referring to go by the names small frame or iron body, muscle-tendon changing and ten thousand hits. when done in their entirety, these, along with my techniques, will take approximately 4 hours a day. 4.30-6.30am and 6.00pm-8.00pm. like, i said, i have a responsibility to do these things. the problem with doing them is that i don't want to compromise my time with my band or with jj. it will definitely put a strain on both of them, taking almost all of my time outside of work. i've been pulling myself in all 3 directions and it's taking me almost to a breaking point. as a side note to wanderluste: this is the mountain i must climb. the band for those of you wondering about the demo, it's still being worked on. the initial recording of the vocals were rushed and didn't come out well at all. we've been recording them at about a song per weekend, so this weekend will be the last song being redone. after this, we need to save up enough money to send them off for replication, which takes about 7-10 days. we're giving the first 100 demos out for free, so if you want one, make sure to get me an email. being in this particular band has been great for me. i've had the most fun and felt the most creative with this incarnation of will and i. we've known each other going on 7 years now and have been in bands on and off together. each new band seems to get better and better. the current one, traces of..., has been evolving into the most musically mature one as of yet. which is something i'm ecstatic about. when the three of us first got together, we started off as something between pop punk and college rock. since then we've grown into something else. with three fixed signs in the band (2 taurii and a lone aquarius), we've had our fair share of head butting and verbal sparring matches. this comes from my constant lust for progression and my ability (as very modern succinctly put it) "to fuck shit up". which is the segue into my next section... fucking shit up as an aquarius sun with uranus squaring, i live to fuck shit up (owing this to VM again). my personal revolution has been brewing day by day. i want to uproot and demolish my traditions. not necessarily start everything anew, but discard everything i feel is not useful. well, jj is awake now, so i'm going to lie next her and feel her warm, warm skin. i hope she doesn't mind coffee breath too much.

  
  

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